Friday, December 12, 2008

Grad School Bummer


Proverbs 16:9 says “In his heart a man plans his course, but the Lord determines his steps.” (NIV). This morning I am reflecting on this wisdom with a little bit of a sad heart. You see in my human nature, it is sometimes hard to understand when your plan is not His or when He gives you such a strong desire and then changes your path, but that has happened today. The truth of the proverb is real but sometimes that does not make the change in course any less painful.

I have been praying in hopes that I would get accepted to graduate school at USC. After 12 stressful weeks of waiting, the news came last night that I was not accepted. I do not have any further information than is contained in the letter which says not accepted and probably never will. It does come as a bit of a shock after having been invited to orientation, receiving a student number and even receiving some sense from my admissions officer that the decision would be different, but there is not much I can do at this point.

So what’s next? There has always been a “plan B”. Understanding that this was a possibility, I have also applied to the Masters of Organizational Leadership program at Biola University. I am waiting to hear from them now as well with hopes that this is the change in path that the Lord has for me. It would be a blessing to be back at Biola, where I did my undergrad degree and in a program that is led by one of my friends as I do love it there and know that I fully support their mission.

So thank you for your prayers and support. Please keep them up but with a shift in direction. Thanks also in advance for your understanding of me being in a little bit of a funky mood for the next few days while I work through the questioning of why. I am looking forward to seeing what path the Lord has in store next with great trust in Him.